It’s been quite some time since I posted on here. I spent some time with God at the beach this weekend and felt led to share with you. This is the first post. I hope it speaks to you!
For months, I felt like the beach was calling me. It was only just a few weeks ago I realized it wasn’t the beach, it was God! God was calling me to the beach for some healing time with Him. I was more than happy to oblige. I could hardly wait for some time in His beautiful creation and in His arms. I had no idea what He had in store for me!
For a while I’d been feeling a little dry. I was still walking on my journey with Jesus but I couldn’t feel his presence like before. In prayer one night, I broke down and asked Him why I could not feel His presence any longer. I’d begun thinking this was just a season… Something I had to go through in order to grow, maybe a test to see if I’d continue pursuing Him even though I couldn’t feel Him. In prayer that night, my Abba showed me that I was the one who’d pulled away. I’d been wounded and felt rejected by friends. The enemy took advantage of this situation and began planting lies. Of course, these lies were attached to THE lie: I’m not good enough.
Somewhere along the line I began thinking I did not belong to this “group” so maybe I don’t belong to this church. I subconsciously took it a step further and began thinking I didn’t belong to God either. I thought, maybe God really doesn’t have a place for me in His Kingdom. The sad thing is that I did not even realize I was believing these lies until my loving Savior gently showed them to me. I was heartbroken! I felt God’s heart for me in that moment, the grief of watching my pain. I could do nothing but cry and ask His forgiveness.
After spending time in my Abba’s presence, I felt restored to Him. I could not believe how long I’d actually been without His presence. I normally spend a lot of time in God’s presence. Usually, my day consists of lots of prayer time, worship, bible study, and time just being with Him. Over time, I’d started spending less and less time pursuing Him. Again, it was so subtle and so slow, I did not realize what had happened until everything was exposed. I am extremely grateful for the time at the beach with my Abba! Yet again, He called to me, drew me in, and spoke truth to me!
Where are you on your journey? Are you feeling a little dry or separated from your Savior? If so, I encourage you to seek Him with all your heart. Ask Him what is separating you. Take time to sit in His presence and listen for an answer.
Jeremiah 29:12-14 “Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the LORD, “and will bring you back from captivity…”
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