A Touch from God

While at the beach spending time with God in October, I experienced a huge revelation/breakthrough!  To begin, I will first give you a little back story.  During the time Kevin and I were engaged I was not a Christian. However, I did pray for a sign from God if marrying Kevin was the right thing or not.  Not long after, several bad things happened and I took it as a sign that it was not God’s will.  Even knowing that, or rather thinking I knew that, I married him anyway. 

The day of my wedding I was extremely anxious, nauseous and generally doing very badly!  There are pictures of me where I look like death! It was horrible!  My family and friends wrote it off as nerves.  Walking down the aisle my Dad kept telling me to “breathe, Aimee, breathe!”  I was thinking, why is he telling me that?  Come to find out, I was hyperventilating!  So, when I got to Kevin and the ceremony began, I remember feeling God’s presence.  Kevin and I wrote our own vows.  After the ceremony, people came up to us and commented how beautiful our vows were, how they could feel God’s presence, how touched they were, etc.

With all of that being said, for 5 years I have believed the lie that I married Kevin against God’s will!  And it WAS a lie!  As my friend and I sat on the balcony at the beach, we were talking about marriage and the importance of being married by a Godly person.  I told her how even though Kevin and I weren’t saved it was important to us to be married by a Godly person.  I began telling her about the day of my wedding and all of a sudden it hit me like a ton of bricks!  This revelation hit me spiritually and I felt it physically! GOD would never make me feel the way I felt on the day of my wedding!  All of that was from the enemy!  All of the feelings I had, I have only experienced when under attack from the enemy.  At the time of my wedding, I was not a Christian and did not know anything about the enemy. I truly believed it was God and that it was my punishment for going against His will!

This revelation hit me in a way I cannot begin to explain.  I immediately began crying and then laughing.  I felt physically lighter and somehow different!  The biggest lie of my marriage had been exposed and God healed me in a way only HE can!  It was as though in that moment, God reached down and touched me and I will never be the same.

Kevin was always God’s plan for me!  I am not powerful enough to change God’s plans. He knew me before He knit me together in my mother’s womb.  He knew at the beginning exactly what it would take to bring me to my knees before Him!  That is why all of this happened.  There was a part of me that believed God didn’t love me before I was saved- that His plans for me didn’t begin until I was saved.  That too was a lie!

My friends, the enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy!  Jesus came so that we can have life and have it to the full! Ask God to expose the lies you are believing and step forward in truth.  It will change your life!  This revelation was an answer to prayer to expose the lies of the enemy.  At the time of praying, I did not have a CLUE that this would be God’s answer.

Lies, Truth, and Restoration

            It’s been quite some time since I posted on here.  I spent some time with God at the beach this weekend and felt led to share with you.  This is the first post. I hope it speaks to you!       

For months, I felt like the beach was calling me.  It was only just a few weeks ago I realized it wasn’t the beach, it was God! God was calling me to the beach for some healing time with Him. I was more than happy to oblige.  I could hardly wait for some time in His beautiful creation and in His arms.  I had no idea what He had in store for me!

            For a while I’d been feeling a little dry.  I was still walking on my journey with Jesus but I couldn’t feel his presence like before.  In prayer one night, I broke down and asked Him why I could not feel His presence any longer.  I’d begun thinking this was just a season… Something I had to go through in order to grow, maybe a test to see if I’d continue pursuing Him even though I couldn’t feel Him.  In prayer that night, my Abba showed me that I was the one who’d pulled away.  I’d been wounded and felt rejected by friends.  The enemy took advantage of this situation and began planting lies.  Of course, these lies were attached to THE lie: I’m not good enough.

            Somewhere along the line I began thinking I did not belong to this “group” so maybe I don’t belong to this church.  I subconsciously took it a step further and began thinking I didn’t belong to God either.  I thought, maybe God really doesn’t have a place for me in His Kingdom.  The sad thing is that I did not even realize I was believing these lies until my loving Savior gently showed them to me.  I was heartbroken!  I felt God’s heart for me in that moment, the grief of watching my pain. I could do nothing but cry and ask His forgiveness.

            After spending time in my Abba’s presence, I felt restored to Him.  I could not believe how long I’d actually been without His presence.  I normally spend a lot of time in God’s presence.  Usually, my day consists of lots of prayer time, worship, bible study, and time just being with Him.  Over time, I’d started spending less and less time pursuing Him.  Again, it was so subtle and so slow, I did not realize what had happened until everything was exposed.  I am extremely grateful for the time at the beach with my Abba!  Yet again, He called to me, drew me in, and spoke truth to me! 

            Where are you on your journey?  Are you feeling a little dry or separated from your Savior?  If so, I encourage you to seek Him with all your heart.  Ask Him what is separating you.  Take time to sit in His presence and listen for an answer.

Jeremiah 29:12-14 “Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.  I will be found by you,” declares the LORD, “and will bring you back from captivity…^”